@sean
🔥 40 day streak
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Maker Doubt Consumes Me

When I first started doing this as a sort of hobby and I thought, hey maybe I can make something out of this web developer thing, maybe even work for myself! It sounded like a great idea, who wants to work in a cubicle for the rest of their lives?! Right?

So yeah I’m going to do this thing in earnest, I’m going to make websites and everyone will use it and Ill be rich like those jokers in SV! What I didn’t know at the time all those years ago is how much I would suck for years and years. I didn’t know who my target market was, I didn’t know anything, I still dont. This year is the first year where I’m finally not thinking code first, ask questions later. I’ve lost time and money over this obsession of mine and I don’t know if it’s worth it. I don’t know if I’ll ever make it. I might be 90 years old and still trying to make a website that people give two 💩 about.

I’m tired of it. I’m tired of launching to crickets and have people eyeball my projects like they’re looking at a dead man walking. This is the year I finally stopped being attached to my ideas and started shipping as the makers say these days. But honestly, what is the point of making websites that no one cares about? There is no point. I’m conquering the useless. The only thing I can do is make things for myself and not spend every waking hour on them. The odds of any of us making a website or a series of websites replace our salaries are low, very low. So don’t be like me and waste a bunch of time and money on something that most likely won’t ever work out.